[ 1:31 Am Wednesday ]
 - idk.

So today I helped Ellen Mae with her project oh jeez, it was funny.
Finishing it up thursday and friday I can't wait.. So much fun!
hmmm well right now I just feel like writing in this thing.. Let out what I keep inside
Last weekend I realized I truly care for someone at this moment.. && it really kills
me inside hearing things that come out of their mouth... I just wish I was able to tell
them how I feel but I know I can't ahhh it just really sucks.. Why does Life have to
so difficult.. or at least telling someone how u feel with out them being offended or stop
talking to you. or make things awkward. Blah.

Hmm what else.. nothing really new. Hmm I am currently now training Rodeny @ my job!
Dang its pretty weird. but I'm having fun. I just hope now that Im not the newbie I get a
raise.. I mean i've been working there for a year and i havent see na change..  i'm really short on money
Blah.. I NEED TO PAY for my BILLS. && school boo. I can't wait until im out of college.

Anywho so today [ yesterday ] I watched 17 again.. ohh geezz Zac Efon is beauuutiful in that movie
and ohhh did that movie make me cry.. I hate chessy lines but its gets me all the time haha

OHH geez im talking to Cathy online right now.. and i guess i say "Oh" alot.. everyone tells me
that haha. oh wells i'm me. MAN i miss cathy and patrick.. I havent seen them in such a long time.
Hopefully this summer will be good.. Just hoping. I might have a Bonfire/Luau [ crossing fingers ]

Welp thats it

[ March 7 @ 1:20am ]

Hmm soo im just laying here after reading the Twilight book.. which im still not fininshed with blah!
i can't believe it is already march. geez where does the timee go...

Today.. well yesterday was pretty awesome, the weather was just rightt.
Janey came over thn jamie ellen and cathy we all shot hoops.. then chilled,
went to the mall then ate at pondarosa.. ohh man we all felt soo grosss after eatting that..

but anywho.. hmm i really dont have anything new that happened to me lately.
family- thumbs up
friends - <3

Life is pretty good. just miss some friends, mostly trev. =/

[ 1:46 - Sunday morrrrnnnaaannngg! ]

Anywho so its 146 am and im up like always which is pretty lame cause im soo BORED.
Cathy is over right now. actually she is sleeping haha i love her!

but yes i wish i was out somewhere.. i pretty much thinking about driving. i have no where to go except to vickys house butt... that is to far for me and idk i would probably fall alseep on the road yeah know.

ekkks so im pretty much getting sick of my work like forreaal i know i shud stop complaining and just do it because some people out there have been fired or.. there are so many people unemployeed but seriously.. this is to much i mean it doesnt seem like its to much but i wish i got paid more.. and when i want off can i please have it sometimes. seriously!!! Today i called my boss and i told him i had no ride and that i will be like an hour late. and GUESS WHAT... he asked his friend to pick me up. oh m g imean seriously if u understood why lol..

[ side note ]
so i just explained to someone what a love triangle was and i fricken sucked at it lol. random i know but... i've been watching a Korean Drama.. called Boys before Flowers and it is soo addicting, its about a girl who came to this school and this school had a group called F4 [ the richest, and most popular guys in school ] && the girl falls for one of the guys and his bestfriend starts liking her after being mean to her.. but the other guy starts to like her and care for her and oh geez haha. anywhooo too much

SORRY JANEY [ the only one who will read this ] that this is long but hey im so bored at home haha.. dang it took 13 minutes to write this haha. eh well im texting and chatting online haha.

sooo yeah. i guess im just going to go to bed or maybe go downstairs and watch a movie.. buh byees

 [ been thinking ]

So went to visit anga today at saginaw with her parents man crazy time with them in the car haha i love that family .. they are like a second family to me.

well me and anga were talking about someone that i really miss. and i also hate him right now.. and i just have to write it out.

Seriously.. don't tell me you will never forget about me after highschool and that we will hangout all the time and see eachother... and not keep your word. he seriously doesnt understand how much he is hurting me.. we were "bestfriends" since 6th grade. Last year  i called him during his birthday, he didnt call me back or say thank you and he didnt say happy birthday to me.. i mean yeah its something little to others but big to me.. during senior year everyone thought we would be together but we didnt and i think it was because i kept pushing u away but im sorry and i really didnt know what we had until now. and i really miss you..  i just wish i could tell him how i feel now but he hasnt even called me back.

idk anymore it just hurts right now. i was fine earlier until anga told me she talked to him and i havent even heard a word.. hopefully ill hear from him. maybe i shud call him again or something.. one last try. right?? idk. gosh this sucks.

So keep in mind and i know everyone hears this but seriously

You never know what u have until its gone....

[ Been thinking about starting a journal again
  but since im always on the computer might as well blog it ]

So, it is 2009 now crazy. I should be graduating in two years but im not haha its ok.
Right now i am just waing for my BP [ Janey Lacanilao ] to come over because while everyone is in school we are at home chillin because we dont start until the 19th which is pretty awesome. except we get out later than everyone else but hey who cares.

Oh i am so excited because I am going to start a new job, but still keep the one i have right now unless i am going to be part time... im going to be working at the hospital and making mula.. ekks finally im going to be able to pay off my bills. and pay my sister back for always paying for me.

i really hope [ which i know is true ] noone reads this blog haha. oh wells..
so i dont really know what to write about.. i think i like writing in my notebook better .. probably because i have have more privacy with it. but i love typing its pretty fun.

maybe i shud post things up like pictures right now looking back on 2008.
i cant believe once again it is alread 2009, 2008 went by so fast...

Maybe i shud set up goals for this year. i know last year and all the years before was to lose weight...
but i am so i dont really need that anymore. im so excited my jeans are fitting better.. well not really they are getting to big, i mean its a good sign but i hate shopping and i dont want to buy more clothes i cant even fit all the clothes i have in my drawers. anywhooo im just rambling on and on because janey is taking to long. and i have nothing else to say

Hmm.. well if anyone reads this and hasnt talk to me in a while and is wondering if im doing well... [ probably not ]
I am for the most part.. im kinda not so well one my bills tho haha and i dont have a signifcant other yet.. not saying that i will anytime soon... it pretty much sucks.. talking to guys and thinking one day they are going to at least ask u on a date or something but never happening... and then all of a sudden they stop talking to you because they are talking to a girl and when hat doesnt work out they come back to you... im just saying.

OH yeah back to my goals haha
- focus MORE in school 
- get all my bills paid off
- try not to let people walk all over me!

... those sound good for the most part.

alright well i think im going to watch a tiwanese drama haha! gosh those are so good - if u ever want to watch them go to www.mysoju.com

watch -
It started with a kiss/They kissed again
hana kim (sp?) tiwanese version [ i love tiwanese dramas better ]
Miss no good
hmm i have more but i forgot haha!

anywho im am stopping here..